What an emotional day it has been! I’ve never felt so many different emotions, nor so intensely. As I write this I’m sitting in seat number 59G on Air New Zealand 30 and I’m about 100m off the ground above Auckland. Bye N.Z see ya in 9 months!
Today, despite the tears, and there has been A LOT of them, has really shown me how lucky I am to have the people I do in my life. In fact it is the tears that has really shown just how much my family and friends mean to me. And importantly, it’s made me realise how much I mean to them too. Goodbyes are always the hardest thing, they leave you empty and drained mentally but your heart even more full as you realise the love and support that surrounds you. I just want each and everyone of you to know just how much I love you and how happy I am to have you in my life, because despite the tears and the sadness and leaving, I know that you’ll be there for me whenever I need it. It’s a big big world but really everyone is only a phone call, or a Facebook message, or a Snapchat, or a Skype call away. Yes, I know that’s not quite the same thing but there’s always someone there to talk to if needed. Also despite the Km’s, with the ingenious invention of air travel Aregntina is only 12 hours away from home.
*ahhh there’s a bump! A lot of bumps! I don’t like turbulence hahaha*
A few hours ago, just after going through Auckland customs I was hit with such an overwhelming feeling of wanting to go home. It’s such a brutal cycle because you’re emotional about leaving home, friends and family and absolutely exhausted from those feelings and when you’re tired all you want to do is go home, but obviously that’s not going to happen. However, just as any other feeling does, it passed. I put down my phone, played a game of cards, walked to the gate and talked to the others and now I’m feeling so much better. So much more excited to go and explore. I know this feeling will come again at some point, and when it does it’s so overwhelming but you just gotta take a deep breath and realise that this isn’t the end of the world. Worse comes to worse, tell yourself that you can in fact go home whenever you want. The beauty is that every decision is your own and you have the freedom to shape your future and your life.
*omg I hate turbulence so much and I just fastened my seatbelt way too tight and can’t loosen it hahaha*
Talk to you soon, because the adventure is just beginning!